9
It’s been two months since Lucky’s departure. The news had hit
everyone hard, but Elizabeth and Luke the hardest. All Elizabeth did anymore
was set in her studio and draw picture upon picture of Lucky and set out on the
docks, looking like she’s waiting for him to return to her. But Lucky never did
show up. She was waiting for nothing.
Luke just sat in his club and drowned himself in vodka, going over
in his mind the angry words his son had last spoken to him. He couldn’t believe
that was the last time he ever saw his son again.
"Cowboy," Luke swallowed down a sob. "Why Cowboy
why?"
Nikolas and Emily kept their eye on Elizabeth making sure she
didn’t do anything drastic and Nikolas kept close watch out for any
reappearance of Helena. Ever since his last discussion with Lucky he decided to
put a end to the old woman himself. Helena was always harping on how much more
like his father Nikolas could be. Well Helena was about to get her wish. She
wanted a Stavros Jr. She got it. Except this time she will be the target of ill
will.
"Nikolas?" Emily poked her head through the cottage
door. "You here?"
"Yeah. Any news on Helena?" He sat at the table. His
recording device still going. He had forgotten to remove the bugs on Helena’s
yacht and he was glad he did.
"None. It’s been two months…maybe she’s decided to give
up."
"Helena give up? I wish she would. One thing you have to
understand about my grandmother Em is when she wants something she never gives
up."
"Nikolas really…I don’t think she’s going to be back anytime
soon. You’re wasting your time setting here day in and day out listening for
any clues she’s back."
"You also thought trying to find my supposed dead brother and
friend was a waste of time but I proved you wrong didn’t I? I’m going to make
sure that Helena’s taken care of so I can find my brother and bring him home to
Liz and Laura. Speaking of Liz, I’m going to the studio to check on her. You
want to come?"
Emily shook her head. Ever since Lucky left, she had avoided
Elizabeth like the plague. It wasn’t that she didn’t care or wasn’t worried
about her friend. It was just that she felt so guilty for having Nikolas and
being so happy in love when Liz was so miserable.
"Ok. I’ll give her your regards," Nikolas got up and
headed for the door.
*
Elizabeth stared at her new painting of Lucky. She had captured
him perfectly. Sometimes, if she closed her eyes and remembered, she could
swear he was in the same room with her. A tear slipped from her eyes as she
wondered once again why he had left her without even saying good-bye?
I didn't here you leave
I wonder how am I still here
I don't want to move a thing
It might change my memory
Oh I am what I am
I'll do what I want
but I can't hide
I won't go
I won't sleep
I can't breathe
until you're resting here with me
I won't leave
I can't hide
I cannot be
until your resting here with me
Elizabeth turned around as she hears the door open and frowned to
see Nikolas looking down at her in concern. She hated that he was always
checking up on her. Plus he was the last one to talk to Lucky…to see him. She
resented the fact that it wasn’t her instead.
I don't want to call my friends
they might wake me from this dream
and I can't leave this bed
risk forgetting all that's been
"Elizabeth…you’ve been here all day painting?"
"It’s all I have left now Nikolas. The only way I can hold on
to Lucky without totally losing my mind. I’m sorry you disapprove."
Oh I am what I am
I'll do what I want
but I can't hide
"Painting like this…it’s not going to bring him back Liz."
"And how do you know? He will come back Nikolas. I know he
will. He’d never leave me for good and I’m going to stay right here waiting for
him."
I won't go
I won't sleep
I can't breathe
until you're resting here with me
"Hey. I know he’s going to come back. I’m just saying you
should get out more. Try having a little fun. That’s what he’d want for you.
All you do anymore is stay in this studio and paint, or go on the docks and
wait for Lucky when he’s not coming. Please Liz, let me take you out to dinner
or something. We can go see Sheba. You always liked riding her. Or you can
drive my Jag…"
"No. If Lucky comes looking for me I need to be here. I can’t
be off gallivanting around with his brother. But if you want to do all those
things don’t let me stop you."
I won't leave
I can't hide
I cannot be
until your resting here with me
Nikolas sighed irritably, running a hand through his hair.
"You’re not the only one that misses him Liz. But he asked us to move on
with our life and not to mourn his departure and that’s what I’m trying to do.
Keep my promise to make you live life until he does return."
Games, changes and fears
When will they go from here
When will they stop
I believe that fate has brought us here
And we should be together
But we’re not
"Don’t you think I’ve tried already to move on Nikolas? That
I’ve tried to be happy without him? I have…but I can’t."
I play it off but I'm dreamin of you
I'll keep my cool but I'm fiendin.
I try to say goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
"Elizabeth…I understand what you’re going through. You think
I’m so carefree and happy…but I’m not. I’m just going through the motions right
now. Lucky wanted us all to be happy and safe. If not safe I’m going to try my
darnest to keep the happy part. No matter how much I want to break down and
beat the ground that my brother felt he had to leave in order to protect the
ones he loves."
I may appear to be free
But I'm just a prisoner of your love
I may seem alright and smile when you leave
But my smiles are just a front
I play it off but I'm dreamin of you
I'll keep my cool but I'm fiendin
I try to say goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
Hot tears spill from Elizabeth’s eyes. "I need him Nikolas. I
need him just to survive. Why didn’t he understand that? All I can think of
anymore is him. His touch, his smile, his kiss…I always dream of New York and
when we had almost made love. Why couldn’t he have come back and taken me with
him? It’s not like we haven’t run away together before…Where is he now? Is he
thinking of us?"
Here is my confession
May I be your possession
Boy I need your touch
Your love kisses and such
With all my might I try
But this I can't deny
I play it off but im dreamin of you
I'll keep my cool but I'm fiendin
"I know he is. He told me we’ll be in his thoughts. Elizabeth
you’re just going to have to be strong. Just for a little while longer. I’m
making this promise to you right now. I’m going to bring him home to you…even
if I have to kill my grandmother to do so," Nikolas pulled his friend into
a comforting hug, stroking her hair as she cried. Starting now, his hunt for
Helena has begun.
I try to say good bye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
Here with me-Dido
I Try- Macy Gray